That Girl

Yesterday featured runs 2 and 3 of a "Hope Express simulation," if you will. Running 2x in one day is not something that I would otherwise ever be doing, but it honestly hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be (in terms of the obvious at least - mentally; getting ready to run twice; running in the AM, but still not having it "done"). Here are snapshots "of" each:

Before heading out on Thursday afternoon:

After Friday morning's run at the gym:

25 hours later - finally done!

Anyway, I decided to wait for Ryan to get home before leaving for my run afternoon run, hoping he would join me. We had both had long weeks and I knew he was feeling particularly worn out/stressed, but I was incredibly insistent (and slightly guilting...) about the fact that going for a run would make him feel better and would help to alleviate some of those feelings. I realized a little too late (after he was dressed, stretched, and sighing heavily at me as we walked out the door) that I was becoming that girl.

Running twice a day? Imposing my beliefs onto others? When I talk to people about my running as of a lately (which I did a few times when we were out last night), I've begun to see myself as this person, and more importantly, runner, that I don't really identify myself with. I've liked the idea of being just a regular person who started running and has really grown to love it. I've recently had three close friends commit to half marathons and when Lani told me (darn off the record or I'd have the exact quote for proof!) that I inspired her to sign up for the San Diego Half in June with TNT, I was ecstatic. I don't think it's self-centered or "all about me!" to say, but I feel so good when friends say things like that, when they see how doubtful I was about being able to do it (a half, running regularly, etc), but that I've been able to do it, something ANYONE can if they make a plan and stick to it. I am thrilled to share my warm fuzzies from running with others and I love talking shop with friends who are seeking this thrill of accomplishment , but I need to know my audience. If I want to avoid being labeled as something I don't think I am, I need to watch the way I present my story and be certain to kindly include others in my activities, instead of talking from my pedestal and making everyone drink the gatorade.